To be honest, there wasn’t a night for the past week when I did not toss and turn on my bed, thinking of this and that, of making ends meet, of just making things better. Then things got worse with the internet issues with this apartment…

Oh goodness, the stupid internet issues with the landlord. Inhumane would be the word to describe how selfish he is— that’s just it. He’s effin’ selfish but he’s covering it up by saying that us using the wifi is sending trouble to his system. He said that because we’re using his wifi, some other people gets into our computer and uses our computer to get into his.

Seriously, person— don’t run me like I’m stupid! My laptop’s virus-free; and FYI: I know that the security system you use is virtually cannot be broken into, unless of course somebody out there has a super computer and you’re a multi-billionaire with golden files to protect.

It’s not like I went to the states straight from under a rock to not know things. You’re a sick psycho-paranoid and we’re paying for the internet so we have the right to use it too; fuck off.

I thought that with this new neighborhood, we can live freely but it’s just getting really hard to breathe… and I really want us to move to a place we can call ours… :c I thought that with my new job, I’ll be able to save up to help us through but then, just my lack of luck, I got an eye infection; and I couldn’t go to work… I just pray that this will not cause me to lose that job… :c

Papa and Mama said that I should stop crying and just be strong; because things already happened and I’ve no choice but face them with the best of me; and no matter what the outcome might be, it’s not the end…

I’ll be okay… it’s hard to be positive when things aren’t going your way for quite some time, but what can being negative do? I wanted to be a tough, confident girl who can take on the world; and these are happening to make me grow and be strong.

I’ll be okay. I know I will… I will be. It’s just a matter of time… and everything will be well. This too, shall pass… like all the other gray days… it’s just a matter of how I will deal with this. I have to be strong… and whatever life throws on my path; I have to take and make the best out of…

For now, I have to make sacrifices… there’s just no use arguing with the psychopath next door about the wifi; I probably won’t be able to be online for quite some time… and also, I have to continue on saving for my long term goals and needs, I have to give up on the wish-list first; which is just the right thing to do anyway.

I guess I’ll be on a semi-hiatus, and hopefully I’ll be back soon in a better shape and happier stories to blog about.

Let’s be positive, self… because there’s no other way but up. :)