If there’s a habit that I need to break, it would have to be my caffeine-dependency; the daily dose of either Starbucks or CBTL and sometimes both in a day. The calories and the expenses sure are piling up; but I try to reason things out by saying that I need caffeine to help me focus before work; and that wi-fi is currently inaccessible in the apartment… and the comforts of a coffee shop would be my only saving grace.

What’s my point? Hmm. Nope, I’m not even sure if I have one. Haha. Maybe I just need a written justification as to why I’m here at Starbucks again… and maybe a concrete budget plan where I don’t have to cut down the coffee expenses without being broke. Like setting a schedule for my wi-fi needs (only go to Starbucks the day after payday… that would be twice a month) and just completely not having coffee during the mornings; despite the CBTL discounts I get.

Okay, I think that’s the plan. Good luck self.

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I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

— Martha Washington

Anyhow, I’ve had a really great work shift this morning. I was feeling down the past few days because there were just so many things I wasn’t able to do right; but today really helped me bounce back with motivation. 

Work is something that would take a big percentage of your time; it would really be disheartening if you won’t enjoy doing it— and if you’d often get nervous before your shift; worrying all day if you’re doing it right. I was talking to Papa about how I can’t wait for the next few months where and when I’m completely confident and sure of my duties; surely we can get to that moment… but until then, I need to be patient, positive and be at my best every single time.

I guess that’s something I have to learn- how to be my own cheer leader. I’ve always believed that we are in a situation, in a place, facing a circumstance for a reason… and no matter what it is; we’re going to get through it… and win it.

I shouldn’t be too hard on myself— I really need to remind myself to loosen up, have fun and think not of the worse that can happen; but concentrate on just giving my best efforts.